This week I had a success, but I am not sure quite how. I lost 1.4 lbs this past week which kind of amazed me because I was sick most of the week and my diet was not the best. But a success is a success and I will take it…To God be the glory!
“My sense of identity was dependent on the wrong things—my circumstances or my weight or whether I yelled at the kids that day or what other people thought of me. If I sensed I wasn’t measuring up, I kicked into withdrawal mode or fix-it mode. Withdrawal mode made me pull back from relationships, fearing others’ judgments. I built walls around my heart to keep people at a distance”—Lysa
I can relate to this quote from Lysa so well. There are times when I fall into fix-it mode, but more often than not I withdraw from people and relationships when I don’t feel like I measure up. I build those walls around my heart to keep people at a distance, but at the same time I am longing for someone to care enough to try and tear down those walls. Then I am hurt and disappointed when they don’t. It really is a vicious cycle.
But when I am doing this I am not basing who I am on God’s truth, I am basing my sense of identity on what I believe other people think of me.
If I want to experience true freedom, I need to base my identity on who Christ says I am.
“If we make the choice as Jesus Girls who offer our willingness to exercise self-control and perseverance to the glory of God, we can lose weight, get healthy, and walk in confidence that it is possible to escape the cycle of losing and gaining back again. We can be victorious. We can step on the scale and accept the numbers for what they are—an indication of how much our body weighs—not an indication of our worth.”—Lysa
So where is my worth found? In Christ or in food?
“But my body is a gift, a good gift for which I am thankful. Being faithful in taking care of this gift by walking according to God’s plans gives me renewed strength to keep a healthy view of my body.”
“I’ve found my beautiful.”
I have never seen my body as a gift, and I have a hard time seeing myself as beautiful. In high school, I had some experiences that led me to believe that not only is my body not a gift, but that my body is something to be ashamed of.
But the Lord is teaching me through this study that not only is my body a gift it is also God’s temple. It is God’s temple and His gift to me. How I treat my body is not only a reflection of how I love myself, but it is a reflection of how much I love Christ.
So when Lysa stressed: “Define your week by obedience” it hit home.
Jesus says, “If you love me, obey my commands.”
So this journey towards a healthier me becomes not only about how much I love myself, but it becomes how much I love Jesus.
And this Jesus Girl loves Him enough that I will walk in obedience and self-control so that He may be glorified.