I have to admit. I can be (am?) a bit of a know-it-all.
My grandmother is always telling me that I should go on this game show or that game show because I know useless bits of trivia, and honestly I like knowing the answers to the questions.
I like knowing that I am right, even when someone thinks that I am wrong. I like knowing how people think and how and why they do the things that they do. I like knowing useless bits of trivia that nobody else knows the answers to.
But lately the Lord has been teaching me the blessings in not knowing.
1) Learning. If you don’t know something, you can always learn, but if you believe that you know everything, you will never learn.
2) Anticipation. The feelings of anticipation when you know something is going to happen, but you don’t know what it is. There is excitement in not knowing. There is fun in not knowing. There is even a little fear in not knowing.
3) The wondering. This kind of ties in with the anticipation because this is about what we do before the knowing…the wondering…How we use our imaginations and try to guess what happens next or is going to happen. The day dreaming about what something will be like. The curiosity of what is to come.
4) The surprise. The excitement when something happens and it isn’t how you thought it would be.
5) The relationship. Now this is a big one. This is one I often forget, but in not knowing relationships can be formed that won’t be when you always know. Ok, that is kind of convoluted, but what I mean is when you can admit that you might be wrong, it strengthens your relationships. Many times when I think I know it all I place being right before the other person and in doing so I hurt the relationship that I have with the other person. If I can admit that I might be wrong, that I might not know, then I can use the not knowing to strengthen the relationship because we can find out the truth together and because I am placing the other person before the need to be right.
I’m an learning (admittedly the hard way) that there are blessings in not knowing, in not always having the right answer, in not always knowing what is going to happen next. I don’t have to have all the answers. God does. I just have to rely on Him, and remember my priorities:
Then you have JOY and gratitude.