I had another post lined up for today. I was planning on talking about my propensity to procrastinate. Once again, I was going to come down hard on myself and show others what a horrible person I am, but today as I was reading on different blogs I noticed something:
A lot of people are feeling discouraged instead of encouraged.
A lot of people are focused on what they are doing wrong instead of God’s grace.
I have been feeling that way myself this week.
I love reading, and I find it easier to put my thoughts and feelings on paper than I do to say them aloud. But I never planned on becoming a writer. Up until high school, I loved my English classes, but when I reached high school, it seemed like nothing I did was ever good enough for my English teacher and she frequently used my writings as examples of how not to do stuff.
This week the things that my former English teacher said have been coming back to haunt me, and I have felt discouraged about my writing.
As I read other people’s blogs, I find myself comparing my writing to theirs and because of that I have been refusing to read other blogs.
I have been going through the book Making Manifest by Dave Harrity, and I haven’t wanted to share because I’m worried that what I am writing is not good enough. Despite the fact that he says over and over again in the book, it is not about good. It is simply about doing.
And I am wearing myself out in the worrying that I’m not good enough, that I don’t have what it takes.
But I have also found that God has been sending me messages this week. He has been sending me messages that are about resting in Him and messages that are about grace and even messages about writing.
He has sent me reminders that He is still working on me and that His grace covers me.
He has sent me reminders that I am beautiful because I am unique and I am His.
He has sent me new friends and has sent old friends to encourage me.
He has given me a dream to encourage other women and has shown me in many different ways that for this season anyway I am called to write.
And He is showing me that it is this season that matters, not past seasons and not future seasons that may not ever come.
But that it is this season that I must be obedient in.
And He is showing me that His grace covers all…the past, the present, and the future.
And it is His grace that I must rest in because His grace covers everything.
So today if you are feeling weary or discouraged, rest in His grace.
Find your rest in Him…because His grace covers you.
Here are some verses for when we need His grace:
And from his fullness we have all received,
grace upon grace.
John 1:16 ESV
But he gives more grace.
Therefore it says,
“God opposes the proud,
But gives grace to the humble.”
James 4:6 ESV
But by the grace of God
I am what I am,
And His grace toward me was not in vain.
On the contrary,
I worked harder than any of them,
Though it was not I,
But the grace of God that is with me.
1 Corinthians 15:10 ESV
For by grace
You have been saved
And this is not your own doing;
It is the gift of God.
Ephesisans 2:8 ESV
Let us then with confidence draw near to the throne of grace,
That we may receive mercy and find grace to help in time of need.
Hebrews 4:16 ESV
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